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back to reality

Over the break, I experienced a tremendous amount of personal frustration, discontentment, and languidity. Since I moved to Atlanta, I have never wanted to leave, and have often said I would spend the rest of my life here. Yet over the break, I felt an itch to move. I had the urge to do something "fun and exciting." Never entirely sure what I meant by that. I always have this desire over Christmas break, but its usually sated by a post-Christmas sale shopping trip. Not this year. I began to realize that all I had done for the last four months was work, coach cross country, and look for a pastor, rarely seeing my friends and constantly overwhelmed and exhausted. I think "fun and exciting" may have just encompassed getting out of my rut.

I was despairing of going back to work, not only because I was enjoying wasting time so much, but because I had no feeling of refreshment and expected only 5 more months of drudgery.

How differently things have turned out from my expectations. Yes, there are still plenty of systemic educations issues that are frustrating and fight to sap my energy, but I have been so glad to be back in the classroom this week. My students have provided me the energy and refreshment I was craving. We have laughed together (LOTS), learned together, and played together. And they have reminded me that they are the reason that I teach.

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