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I'm not very good at keeping New Years Resolutions. Really, who is? I have kept two that I can remember in my life; both were food related. In 1998, I did not eat french fries and in 2006, I did not eat chocolate. I tried not to drink soft drinks in 1999, but that lasted about a day. We were had hiked the Grand Canyon to Bright Angel Point and all I wanted at the top was a Coke. So I caved.

Last year, I decided instead of making a resolution, I would make a commitment: to read more in the realm of education policy. I didn't keep the commitment that well in 2008 at least, but I did apply to go back to school to study education policy. Maybe fulfilling that one still lies in the future.

This year, I have resolved to not ask "Why?" When circumstances in my life get bumpy, rough, or just plain traumatic, I need to know why, what God's purpose behind my unpleasant circumstances is. I believe that God is sovereign and I believe that He works all things for good to those who believe. And to make myself feel better, I want to see how He is working whatever yucky circumstance to my good.

I have also become convinced that this need to know "Why" and to be able to see God's purposes is my lack of faith and need for control. I know that God is always good to me and that His purposes are to redeem the world, to sanctify me, and to bring Himself glory in those things. That should be sufficient answer to my question.

posted by CP @ 6:48 PM 1 thoughts